Mmmmmm!!!!

ParleG, Marie biscuit, Milk Bikis- all taste yummy when dipped in coffee and eaten when mushy mushy! Why am I saying this now??!
Coz I am having it right now(ParleG this time :-)).
And in McD style 'Am Luvin It!!'

Just a few silly questions.....

Why am I always confused?
Why do I always feel that I don’t have enough dresses-though I have a cupboard full?
Why do I hate apples when everyone else seems to adore?! (Yuck!)
Why is the sky sooo high?
Why can’t clouds be as soft and fluffy as they seem so that we could play cloud hopscotch?
Why is pink a girly colour?
Why do I always lose my hankies?
Why can’t all days be weekends?
Why do I think that the British accent is so cute? (Actually I know the answer to this-coz of Hugh Grant J)
Why are some people such insufferable fools?
Why do some people put incredible mokkai that you have to go Vadivelu style “same blood?!” (U can’t point at me now-this is my blog, I have every right to say anything, even if it is aruvai no.1!)
Why did Ramarajan always dress in bright violent colours?
Why should all good things come to an end? (Don’t tell me coz best things have to start happening-I am very much satisfied with the good one itself, thank you very much.)
Why did I quit Eng Lit and study engineering? (Something I will regret forever)
Why should everyone come first?
Why can’t I become a baby again?
Why does life always surprise you nastily with unexpected twists just when you are perfectly comfortable?
Why can’t I stop rambling like this on and on?! (STOP!)

Seruppu Sogam:-(

Shoulders squared, chin held high, eyes bright, I stepped off the escalator confidently - slid,skip,slide-balance! One moment I was the picture of the new age woman and then I was floundering to stand still :-( I glanced down at my sandals and there lay the culprit! The heel was broken.I managed to walk safely back to my place and sat thinking about my sad slipper saga.

Fortunately or unfortunately, I have never been lucky with footwear.Except when I was wearing canvas shoes to school, all other footwear have always betrayed me.My canvas shoes used to last for a couple of yrs though they decidedly looked dog eared at the end.But anything else? Couple of months is a big deal! Whether they are from high end stores like Metro, Bata or middle range like Khadims, Durable or Pondy bazaar, T.Nagar platform -all desert me in a couple of months. Sports shoes or peep toes or sandals or cut shoes- with/without straps or buckles or laces or wht not! Nope no use!
How did Cinderella manage to dance with glass slippers??!
And how do all those Salsa dancers prance around with those stilettos?!!

This lands me in the most uncomfortable and embarrassing situations- like when I am running to catch the bus. Suddenly am running in full speed and then am limping along as if I got a sudden attack of paralysis!
Or in the middle of a work day in office. And i need to borrow someone else's even to go to the loo!!!! Shucks!!

My neighbourhood cobbler must have earned his living coz of me.
And I earned everyone's wrath in my home-coz the shoe racks are so full of my shoes.I always keep backups there-knowing how undependable my shoes are!
Ithu pothathunnu comments vaera " Oh maasa maasam puthu seruppa?!! Nee kalakku ma!" @###$%%!!!!!!!!!!!
And this fateful story continues across continents! Shoes I got in UK, shoes I got in US-SAME!!!Gimme a break! What is the matterrrrr???? Scissor feet??! The way I walk?? Agreed I have a..er.. mmm.. how to I say it? Peculiar kind of walk??!!But that cant be cured! So am I doomed to buying 2 pairs of shoes every 2 months??? Boo Hoo!
The only ones which seem to last a little longer are the school girlish canvas shoes or the flippish flappish hawaii slippers-and am not wearing those!!!

Introvert Introspection

I was having a chat with a friend of mine and was told very sincerely “If you don’t go to this event ppl will think that ur an introvert” OK. So??
I mean I need to be worried if ppl think that am a murderer. I need to be worried if ppl think that I’m a suicidal pyscho. But why in the world should I worry if ppl think that I am an introvert?? What is wrong with that??
So I googled this and whoa! So many articles on this!
Looks like all my fellow introverts face the same plight :-(
Why shouldn't one be an introvert?
Just because the ppl who get noticed most are extroverts, why view introversion as a shortcoming?
Why do introverts get labeled as anti social or mean or weird or loner or loser?
In fact many ppl have thought/think that am arrogant-simply coz I don’t prefer to open up soon or coz I don't mingle easily.
After all its just a matter of preference.
Just as I prefer chicken over fish, just as I prefer oranges over apples, I prefer to spend time with myself . I love to read, write, paint, cook, watch movies and a whole lot of other things which I enjoy doing by myself.
Mind you, I do have friends. A small group of special ppl and yes I do like to hang out with them too. But not every other day! I like travelling -once a month maybe. And I have absolutely no issues about going out by myself-either for a walk or for shopping- I enjoy my company. I like being alone with my thoughts. I’d rather be backstage than in the spotlight. Whats so bad about that?
I don’t feel bad that I am not mobbed by ppl always! I don’t feel sad to spend my weekends cozily at home! In fact I need it-otherwise I would just go crazy. I may feel lonely at times- but there are umpteen other reasons for that. I could feel lonely even with a group of people. Its not just coz I spend my time with myself.
Having friends, going out, socializing is important. I agree. But I also feel that spending time with yourself is equally important.
To quote from an article I read online by Brian Kim “Most introverts are well aware of all the social nuances, customs, and mannerisms when it comes to interacting with other people, but they simply don’t choose to socialize as much as extroverts, which makes it easy for extroverts to assume that introverts are not socially well adjusted.
Do introverts stay true to who they are and risk social alienation and isolation or do introverts conform and join the extroverted side, pretending to be somebody they’re not just to fit in?
Trying to “turn” an introverted person into an extroverted person is detrimental because it gives off a subtle suggestion that there is something wrong with them, hampering their self worth and esteem when there is absolutely nothing wrong in the first place.”
In fact, even I was surprised to know that there are quite a famous lot of introverts to cheer me up! Albert Einstein, Issac Newton, Charles Darwin, Julia Roberts, Steven Spielberg, Tom Cruise, Michael Jordan and Tiger Woods!! Wow! Sounds good!!
The bottom line is Introverts are perfectly fine. We do not need to be fixed. Just let us be. We like the way we are.

Dark Whispers

I drift,

All alone, dreary and desolate,

Amidst empty words and broken promises,

Forgotten deeds and shattered dreams.

Soothing words no longer whisper in my ears,

Hear the vultures call instead.

Gentle touches no longer caress me,

Instead, cruel hands drag me down.
Fate has surrendered me to Despair.

Thorns that bleed my heart and drink my soul,

I have found.

Thoughts that curse my mind and feed on my tears,
I am left with.

Will you smile, to hear me cry?

Will you laugh, to see me die?

Victim of situations,

Sacrifice, at the Altar of Society, I know not.

Oh Sweet Agony!
Leave me alone,
Give me peace…..
Let me sleep, forever.

Was last time The Last Time?

Recently I was feeling sad about how we hardly ever know whether it is the last time that we are doing something. For example, sometimes you think that you will never see a person again- but unexpectedly you bump into them somewhere when you least expect it. Or you may think that you will never come back to this place again- but surprise! Somehow fate leads you to the same place one fine day!

On the other hand, you would have done some stuff a thousand times and it eventually becomes so much of a routine that you don't even pause for a second to think 'What would I do if this is the last time that I can do this?'

But at the same time I think in one way this is better. I mean if we really knew the final time that something was happening, could we really be able to bear it? Like if you knew that you would never ever see a loved one again or that you would never walk again after this particular saunter or that this is your last day in this job of say 20 years and your going to be fired tomorrow- could we really handle that? I doubt it.Sometimes it is so much better not to know a lot of things!

The last time I gossiped and giggled with you, my friend,

I didnt think that it might be the last time- or maybe I would have laughed more?

The last time I hugged you, my mother,

I didn't think that it might be the last time- or maybe I would have held on tighter?

The last time I was fought with you, my brother,

I didn't think that it might be the last time- or maybe I would have forgiven you sooner?

The last time I walked with you, my father,

I didn't think that it might be the last time- or maybe I would have strolled longer?

The last time I ran in the rain and got thoroughly drenched,

The last time I had an ice cream, shivering on a cold winter day,

The last time I climbed a mountain and huffed and puffed all the way up,

The last time I saw the sun rise and paint the skies with streaks of dawn,

The last time I fell down fr0m my bicycle and scraped my knee,

The last time I played in the beach and went home all gritty and sandy

The last time I walked barefoot on wet grass and felt the dewdrops on my feet,

The last time I screamed myself hoarse to support my team,

The last time I smelt the intoxicating fragrance of soft white jasmine,

The last time I heard my grandma's lovingly old voice,

I didn't think that it might be the last time.

There are so many people in my life, whom I haven't met for a looongg time. The last time I met some of them, I never realised that I might not be seeing them again. In fact, I don't even know whether I will or wont! And there are so many things which I don't know if I will ever do again.

Suppose you come to know that you will become blind in 24 hrs, what are all the things and who are all the people whom you would want to see, one final time? Or suppose you come to know that you will become deaf? What and all and whom and all would you listen to? Or if you knew that you are going to be stricken dumb what all and to whom all would you speak? Or if you could never smell again, what all would you like to smell? Or touch, one final time?

Maybe we should appreciate Life more.

Nothing At All!

Well its been a loonngg time since I blogged anything – was just a little caught up with work and moving across continents et al.
And since I got such great feedback from everyone I really thought that I better write one soon if I don’t want ppl to forget me!
So here I am. But the tough part is to choose what to blog about. Hmmm let me seee….
The latest movie I saw? Though I liked it, considering the fact that it was released in 1989, I better skip that. Incidentally the movie was When Harry Met Sally- almost 20 yrs bck I suppose!
Next topic- The latest book I read? The Godfather- written sometime in the 70’s?! Looks like I am doing a lot of catching up nowadays! Next pls!
My latest trip? That was to Washington DC for the National Cherry Blossom festival. It was beautiful. The whole place was covered in pink and white blooms and really good.
Apart frm tht the usual White House, Capitol, Pentagon blah blah!
Come on this is not a travelogue- it’s a blog-move on!
So after much deliberation I thought oh let me write nothing. Nothing at all.
Then a brainwave struck me! Why not write about nothing at al??! In other words, or more specifically according to MS Word about zilch, naught, nil, nonentity!
Nothing as defined by wikipedia as the lack or absence of anything at all.
In fact its got a pretty interesting way of explaining the concept Do look it up.
For example, did you even think realize that the concept of nothing is so closely related to Nirvana??! Whew!

Nothing can actually mean a lot of things. Like when you have just fought with your buddy and there falls an ominous calm, you ask the person "what?" and he/she gives you a cold stare and says "Nothing" - Rest assured that the argument has not ended and will definitely continue pretty soon- sooner than you would expect, in fact! Or suppose your boss is givin you a lecture on one of his 'bright' ideas, and inside ur thinking 'censored for sensitive audiences' thoughts and he asks 'Any doubts?' , you could jus give a little shrug and say 'oh nothing boss! its perfect'- lets keep our fingers crossed and hope none of my bosses read this ;-) Or if your one of these kewl teenager types and jus dont have the patience to explain anything to anyone, you could give a contemptous flick of your head, raise a perfectly shaped eyebrow, give a 'God Save You For Being So Dumb' look and say 'Oh nothing! Forget it!' while chewing gum. Attitude, man!

Wow! U know wht? I never thought I could blabber so much about nothing at all!
After reading this, I do hope none of you would quote Ronan Keating/Alison Krauss and say to me, ‘You say it best, when you say nothing at all!!’